Friday, March 31, 2006

o36 * Bad Day?

the smell of coffee and rain reminds me of a man with whom i have shared a number of fun and expensive but annoying evenings of debate and friendship.

Where is the moment we need at the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day



"Bad Day" by Daniel Powter

Thursday, March 30, 2006

o35 * Strange

You Are Emerald Green

Deep and mysterious, it often seems like no one truly gets you.
Inside, you are very emotional and moody - though you don't let it show.
People usually have a strong reaction to you... profound love or deep hate.
But you can even get those who hate you to come around. There's something naturally harmonious about you.

You Are 60% Open Minded

You are a very open minded person, but you're also well grounded.
Tolerant and flexible, you appreciate most lifestyles and viewpoints.
But you also know where you stand firm, and you can draw that line.
You're open to considering every possibility - but in the end, you stand true to yourself.

ano ba yan.. parang sakto ah....

o34 * Darkness of the Eclipse a Call for Enlightenment

Below is an astronaut's perspective on the recent Eclipse.

A circle of darkness moving quickly across a lengthy swath of the Earth on Wednesday triggered fascination and reaction from people around the world. An astronaut about to embark on a six-month space mission said that fascination is a reason humans work hard to shed light on the unknown.

The shadow of the moon moved in a northeasterly direction, beginning in Brazil and across the Atlantic, northern Africa, western China and Mongolia. Its longest totality duration was just over four minutes in western Libya, about 1,250 miles south of Tripoli a little after 5 a.m. EST.

Astronaut Jeffrey Williams said the reaction to the eclipse on the day of the launch of the 13th crew of the International Space Station reminds "all of us who work in the space exploration program just what our purpose is, for discovery and exploration, and understanding the unknown."

He said such phenomena have, throughout history, inspired people to explore and discover, "to understand why things like that happen."

Williams, the NASA science officer on the station's Expedition 13 crew, is to launch with E13 Commander Pavel Vinogradov to the station today at 9:30 p.m. EST from the Baikonur Cosmodrome in Kazakhstan, where they spoke to media this morning, to begin their stay in space.

With them will be Marcos Pontes, Brazil's first astronaut, who will spend about eight days on the station and return with the Expedition 12 crew, which is wrapping up its six-month stay in orbit. Pontes said he saw the eclipse as a good omen for the start of the mission.

Vinogradov said he found the event an interesting astronomical phenomenon. He said he had no opinion about whether it was good or bad.

Many people in the path of the eclipse were a good deal more excited about the event. Some likened it to the end of the world while others feared ill effects from the event. Some saw it as a religious experience.

Many, including some Americans who had traveled great distances to see the eclipse, said it was a fascinating and exciting natural phenomenon.

This picture was taken in Krasnoyarsk, Russia, 12:21 UTC.

Vinogradov didn't share their excitement." We just know that the moon was between the Earth and the sun," he said.

Wednesday, March 29, 2006

o33 * . . . a revelation?

Your Love Life Secrets Are

Looking back on your life, you will only have one true love.

Although you may have been hurt before, you tend to bring very little scars into new relationships.

You expect a lot from your lover - you want the full package. You tend to be very picky.

In fights, you speak your mind and don't hold back. You know you're right, and you can get quite angry about it.

Getting over a break-up doesn't take long. Easy come, easy go.

o32 * My Yahoo Horoscope for Today

If someone is rushing you, they don't respect you. Your timetable is the priority.

Friends may try and talk you out of a situation that they think is a potential fiasco, but in which you see nothing but potential. You're right to stay hopeful about this situation. It'll all work out sooner than you think.

Monday, March 27, 2006

o31 * Sometimes I wonder...

what's the sense of behaving when other people think you're doing otherwise..?

o3o * Remembering the Band

The first few notes I heard over the radio this morning during my usual short cab trip to the office were so familiar, that it brought back memories of the band, which somehow broke through the scene around six years ago.

I know there's something in the wake of your smile
I get a notion from the look in your eyes [yeah]
You've built a love but that love falls apart
Your little piece of heaven turns too dark

I bugged my friends that we try the then-newly-discovered jam studio in Betis. [You don't know where Betis is unless you're from Pampanga or have gone and conquered the province.] We weren't professionals, nor have we experienced being on stage. I was just this ambitious young lady who was so into music and would want my musician friends get their acts together and strut their stuff on stage... That's when we met the rest of Blue Rock.

Blue rock. They rocked.
While listening to this tune, it reminded me of those days when we still played in selected small towns in Pampanga. Our band leader and guitarist, Joel, would research on which towns would soon be celebrating their fiesta. He would then call a meeting and a band practice - I was still studying in Manila, while they were all in Pampanga. Unfair! haha ..but for the love of performing, I made sure that I would be at the corner of Sta. Rita every Friday afternoon, waiting for a ride to Guagua.

By the time that I arrive at the meeting place, they are all there - complete, almost dehydrated waiting for me [haha at least, they looked dehydrated] and ready for a jam.

Sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile
The precious moments are all lost in the tide [yeah]

They're swept away and nothing is what it seems
The feeling of belonging to your dreams

We've had a few good gigs. I was new at it and new in the scene but they said I didn't suck and they were actually surprised that I knew how to handle it. I struck some wrong notes during practices but I have never failed them during live acts... Deym, I definitely miss those days and nights...

And there are voices that want to be heard.
So much to mention but you can't find the words.
The scent of magic, the beauty that's been
When love was wilder than the wind.

Gigs were fun. These are memories I choose to remember.
I remember a few funny incidents and weird requests.
Here's one: The first time we were playing was at a big fiesta in Guagua on the first day of that year. We were at the venue very early since we were set to play first. We waited for people to gather around. I was so nervous that I couldn't eat, I kept yawning, I wanted to poo and I kept asking my bandmates how they were feeling.

Jen, my cousin, gave me a red apple. She said it was for good luck.

The waiting time passed, the program was about to start in a few minutes. The barangay councilor, who was also the host of the program, approached Joel. Make a wild guess what he wanted us to do..... He wanted us to play and sing the Philippine national anthem..! HAHAHA! Wtf?! *ROFLOL*

Of course, I said no. I thought that it was a very crucial supposedly smart decision that the band needed to make since our first appearnace would define what the band is all about. Imagine what other people would say when asked if they have heard about the Blue Rock -- "Ah, yung kumanta nung national anthem..." *LOL*

We said "no". The barangay councilor could not force us nor could he send us to jail for saying refusing to do so.. So, he sang it himself..haha..and proceeded with the program.

Jen, was I able to thank you for the apple? ...Thanks, I think it worked. The band had other four or five live acts [with me] after that and some requests from other bands to jam with us. But being the fatherly Joel around, he said it wasn't time yet.

Listen to your heart when he's calling for you
Listen to your heart, there's nothing else you can do
I don't know where you're going and I don't know why,
But listen to your heart before you tell him goodbye.

As I mentioned earlier, I was still studying then. Being two hours away from the province made it hard for me to cope with my schedule -- juggling the band, theater and studies is like giving birth to an elephant. I also felt guilty for having kept the rest of the band waiting many times and realize after two or three hours that they were stood up. So, i quitted.

The last thing I heard about Blue Rock is that they have already changed their music from alternative pop rock to a bit of showband-r&b music. Then, most of them, except for Joel and Dexter, got their girlfriends pregnant and married them afterwards. hehe
Joel works in Manila. Dexter now plays with a new Pampanga-based showband-band.

To Joel, Dexter, Ronald and Mr. Keyboardist.... Kudos!

Song: Listen to Your Heart

by Roxette

*Why this song, you ask...? My bandmates made me sing this during rehearsals. haha!

o29 * School Branding [where do you position yourself?]

Source: a forwarded email

In a grand ballroom party conducted by the Philippine Society of Colleges and Universities, the Chairman of the Board got curious to know what particular schools attended the big celebration. Therefore, he checked out the house where it was all happening. Guess whom he found and where he found them?

UP Diliman - everybody was lined up to the attic to have a fraternity ritual
UP Los Banos - they were in the garden mowing the lawn
UP Manila - they were into "drugs"
Ateneo - they were inside the TV room with a microphone chanting the "BLUE EAGLE" spelling
La Salle - they were eavesdropping
San Beda - some were beside the Ateneans while others were in the bedroom with some Paulinians
St. Paul - they thought they were with the Ateneans
La Consolacion - they wanted to be the Paulinians
Holy Spirit - they want the Paulinians
Miriam - they were beside the room of the Ateneans . . . like always
Assumption - they were inside the bathroom three hours already since arriving
St. Scholastica - they were next in line for the bathroom
CEU - some were doing the dishes while others were busy with the laundry
St. Louis - they were in front of the air conditioner
UE - they don't know what's an air conditioner
UST - they were everywhere
FEU - they were nowhere
MLQU - sob! They were not invited
San Sebastian - How the hell did they pass by security?
Letran - the Security
Mapua - they were fixing the leak in the roof
TIP - they were the ones who created the leak
NU - they were outside the house selling cigarettes
JRC - they were the ones buying
Adamson - went to Luneta instead
Sta. Isabel - they were Adamson's dates
CRC - what the hell is this party for?
PSBA - what the hell is CRC?
NCBA - what the hell is PSBA?
AMA - they were parading with Jolina posters

Tawa lang mga kapatid.. =)

Thursday, March 23, 2006

o28 * 23

it's just unusual to not hear anything from you.
especially today being the "OA" that you are when it comes to this.

notice the entry number, too? could this be a phase in history repeating itself?

if there is anything wrong, i would really love to know.


o27 * Admirers of Blue-Collared Workers

brought by the cab ride i had and discovering that there is a papa-material cab driver out there (unlike the typical smelly, smelly, old cab drivers), i used this status in Yahoo Messenger (YM) last week...

"may gwapo palang taxi driver =)haha"

what's funny is that i received different kinds of responses and reactions from my YM buddies - friends and co-workers.

first, the expected responses from the male species, claiming that they are "gwapo".....

1. iko

"ako yun.... hindi ako taxi driver ................ oo naman, ganda...basta driver sweet lover pa....may maganda din no na driver....hehehe"

2. mad (boss)

"Siyempre naman... Para ding sinabi mo: "May guwapo pala sa (insert company name here)..."

3. ateng

"di naman ako nag taxi driver ah?"

Some reactions were of to bash me. Here's one..

chadd : hoy mahiya ka nga! pati taxi driver...
bee : LOL
bee : hoi! kmukha nmn ng eyes and nose nya yung kay ryan philippe..... san ka pa?!
chadd : :-S .. SA LAHAT NG TAGA (insert company name)!!! EXCUSE ME
chadd : Announcement lang... paki ligawan naman to si Bee oh... please lang... :)
bee : LOL .. baliw! may bf na ko...
chadd : ....ay onga pala ...naku
chadd : OK OK...SA LAHAT ULIT NG TAGA (insert company name)...
chadd : AKO! Ako na lang ang ligawan nyo....
bee : LOL

And then, there were these three women who admitted to their long-hidden desires for blue-collared job workers. The next batch of responses are from friends who have had similar experiences and may have had stronger feelings for their blue-collared crushes compared to my moment with the cute cab driver.... ;p ..(may moment factor..?!haha)

1. Flub

"pre,tricycle driver nga nun me crush me e nung (nasa) diamond (subdivision) pa kami, kagwapo ng loko pabalik balik me main gate just to ride... bakla nga ata me...."

(*Flub is a very confused individual.... i guess, up until now she doesn't know which is her preference gender. :p)

2. Chichay

"ako me nakita waiter sa Cotabato kamukha ni Borgy Manotoc.. hehehe ..ako yung waiter lagi nilalagyan refill yung inumin ko... e hini naman refillable yun ice tea dun... pero ang gwapohhhhhhh!"

(*Borgy Manotoc is a sexy male model very well known here in the Philippines for his abs and good looks. ;>)

3. Banana

"ako diiin, dati.... sa karpentero.. hahaha basta drayver sweet lover .. naks! ..basta carpenter, sweet lover! asteeeegg"

later this week, she added a new story....

"Ayyy nasabi ko na ba sayo na si SAM ay may tricycle sa kanila? at marunong sha magdrive... at ... imagine that buo ang pantasya sa blue collar love interests haha o diba , yun ang means of transpo namin pag andun sa kanila. hay di ko nga maimagine na magkakaboyfren ako na ganyan ano. probinsyanong tricycle driver na naka chinelas . at least di nakikipaginuman ng nakahubad sa kanto. Yung may tato pa... pag may dumadaang babae... " Hi mezz"

the tattoo conversation is a different story... =)

Just to clarify:

this entry might create a notion that the individuals mentioned here and the author herself thinks too highly of themselves and finds delight looking down on other people.

pleeease. no, that is NOT the case.

definitely, the individuals mentioned in this entry have respect for and salute people who have odd jobs because despite of poverty and the difficulty to find job nowadays, they have their pride, principles and conscience intact and chooses to have decent jobs. no matter how odd others may see it.

note that, each person has his/her own definition of "oddness". for example, a lawyer may find it odd to be working at a fastfood chain as a kitchen crew. just as the author actually finds her attachment to the company she's working for very odd. :p

this entry is merely a sharing of conversations and reactions the author finds funny.

have a nice day. ;)

Monday, March 20, 2006

o26 * As Oceans

by Wolfgang
(Take the Wolfgang test here.)

Close your eyes and rise as oceans
breathin' floatin' across tha way
underneath you all sorts and motions
as this blue horizons calls
and no God no man can control where you roam
as the current serves my motor
I'm pushing on now awake
like the ocean fells your waves
tentacles to crush rocks on shores
tides devoid of emotion
all your wonderful dreams washed away
as I stand on the sand being dragged by your hand
like an anchor that's bringing me down
below the water, cause man
he can he can control where you roam
now rest as oceans
be still, yet always in constant motion
quiet yet never afraid
silent yet always awake
and no God or mar can dictate where you stand
no bounderies cast, forever you last
as the ocean calls your name



i think the test result gave me this song 'cause i chose Ariel, the little mermaid. haha for kicks! ;p

Friday, March 17, 2006

o25 * we are only human

the hold up incident jeff and i experienced around a month ago makes me realize now how quickly in a snap we could lose ourlives.
i'm thinking, if the hold-uppers snapped out the tiny bit sanity and control left in their nuts, anyone could've died there in the bus.

we, passengers, had no way out. we had no control of the situation.
they had their "operation" all covered.

luckily, our guardian angels were on duty and kept us protected all through Cubao.

i received an email from my mum this morning. it contained only of nine pictures. no descriptions whatsoever.

six out of the nine pictures were shots of a man ran over by a Fermex bus [NYR-525].

his brain was literally squished out of his head.

everyday, we wake up and the first thing on our mind is work and how we could earn more, if not enough, money. we work so hard to make our lives better, to make your loved ones' lives just a little more comfortable than yesterday. quality time with our family takes the backseat for awhile, you might have thought.

for this man, he woke up that morning to die.
we don't know what he died for, though.

what would you die for?

the human body is so fragile and weak yet most of the time, we forget and we neglect to take care of our bodies.

it's important that we make time to take care of our bodies, and also not to forget to enrich our spiritual lives as well, for our body, without the spirit, is just human meat.

o24 * Oh sooo familiar move...

How to Steal an Idea

"In a discussion, always summarize the proceedings thus far. You need not have thought up any of the ideas you present. But when you come in with your comment, pick out the interesting ideas earlier presented and synthesize these to move the discussion forward. It is not necessary to acknowledge who said what. This will only confuse the audience and give credit to the wrong person—somebody else."

Source: Power Plays: Notes from the Corporate Bench, a book of essays by business executive and BusinessWorld columnist Antonio R. Samson

'got this excerpt from Jessica Zafra's blog.

Wednesday, March 15, 2006

o23 * Psalm 147:4

"He determines the number of the stars,

and calls them each by name."

*sent to me by an old-time friend..
thanks, skaterboi!

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

o22 * Ignorance

read their fried american brains here.


"Only two things are infinite,
the universe and human stupidity,
and I'm not sure about the former."
~Albert Einstein

Friday, March 10, 2006

o21 * NASA-an na nga ba tayo..?

Today there are more opportunities than ever before that await each and every one of you who wants to reach for the stars. In the 21st century, your generation is going to lead the world…and possibly, even leave this world to live on another. These opportunities might lead to adventures such as living on the International Space Station; or working on a research station on a near-Earth asteroid; developing a colony on Mars; or peering thousands of trillions of miles into the vastness of space, looking for Earth-sized planets, and searching for an answer to the big question: Are we alone?

Exploring heavens brings advances here on Earth that we have yet to imagine. But we should also pursue these missions because there’s more to life than survival and consumption. Are these goals bold? Yes. Are the missions risky? Yes. Is there a chance we could fail? You bet.

New frontiers – in space and on Earth – are always risky … and often dangerous. But don't be afraid to dream. Now its your turn. Take your place in history. Join the NASA team.

i would only work for America if i would be with NASA or SWAT.
....waaah..! gsuto ko mag-apply!

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

o2o * the fright of emptiness

could it be that in strict confinement,
in making me only yours,
that i might eventually feel and become empty?

how would you know the true me?
how would you see my colors?
how would you meet my personalities?
how could we share interests?

..if you do not let me be who i am and who i want to be?

it frightens me.

how could you find nothingness?
how can you love emptiness?

before my colors turn black and grey,
i want you to know me,
i want you to see right through me,
i want you to find me.

as i know you, see you, hear you, find you...

and love you.

o19 * limo

i remember receiving a similar message to this a couple of years back...

"Everyone wants to ride with you in the limo, but what you need is someone who will take the bus with you when the limo breaks down."

-- Oprah Winfrey

Monday, March 06, 2006

o18 * actually..

i don't really care about you, you know...

you're full of 'press releases'....

sorry.. but i don't buy it.

Friday, March 03, 2006

o17 * coming clean (what she never knew..unless she finds this blog)

a few secs ago, i was reading a former officemate-sort-of-friend's blog. she's the same realistic-idealist, smart -ass girl i knew. i still love reading her entries since her views always made sense and i learn a lot from her thoughts, whether i agree with them or not, it doesn't matter. unlike some blogs that made me twitch a lot wondering what s/he meant by his/her words. some gave me headache. her entries are also eye-openers especially when in comes to topics that discuss her faith . in actuallity, i admire her for her firm stand on her beliefs and principles.

i was almost done reading her when a very distinct memory popped up into my mind and robbed my attention. oh, i realized how crazy and ignorant i was of the situation and the people involved before the island encounter.

let's call her "Sib". Sib lives her life on very high standards. she's very picky and does not want to settle for anything less but the best.. which is fine.. but would make her quest for her ideal man harder.

since she's single and near her 30's, most of our teammates wanted to play cupid. (one, actually, wanted to replace him.) during lunchtime and idle hours, my teammates would pop up names of friends and acquaintances who could and might match Sib's requirements and standards.

among the few recommended men, they kept teasing her to this guy. let's call him "Black".

i remember our teammates telling her that Black is a good-hearted young man who also works within the company but is assigned s0mewhere else (read: he has a stable job). they told her he was single (well, that's far as they know...) and belongs to a rich family (which is good match for Sib since her family is wealthy as well..) yet still remains very true and humble.

i later on found out that their information were true except for one thing... Black was in a long-time pseudo-relationship and was actually semi-open to an offer of a more stable -official relationship.

how did i find out? i was not really paying much attention to the information, until the day the employees were sent to a not-so-far-out island for the annual company outing.

i met Black there and in fairness, had a good time.. except that, the supposedly friendship that should have stayed that way developed into something deeper and more exciting over time, a couple of 'small talks' and hot, steamy, sweet, tempting.... caffeinf-filled cups. (what were you thinking?!)

i enjoyed every bit of it, anyways.. and somewhat felt guilty and insecured about for a time, as well.

yes, i realized what my hapiness that time caused Sib. although Sib knew that Black and i became friends since the island getaway, she was clueless of the real score. i would even give her information about Black to keep her interested, ride on her theories why Black is just too shy to ask her out and i even had the nerve to explain or make up an excuse why Black did not make any move to chase her.

bad. tsk, tsk, tsk.

"he" or "what we were" is just another story i would rather not expound on about. maybe next time. ;) when i'm ready to come out squeaky clean. ;) haha ..for now, im just coming out clean enough. just enough for you not to mistake me as an uber guilt-free hypocrite.

o16 * war is over

finally, the 4-day war is over between me and him.
thank heavens, we were able to talk last night brought by an unfortunate event...
his daddy was rushed to the hospital yesterday due to Pleurisy.

Lord, i pray that his dad heals and that they would be able to solve their gap soon.
i pray soon for the latter.

Thursday, March 02, 2006

o15 * was clueless

it didn't cross my mind that my entry post #013 was timely.

it is lenten season once again...
and it's another season to remind us to make that needed change in our lives.

i hope you went out of your way to receive blessing yesterday (ash Wednesday)

wishin' you well always, brother/sister. =)